i have nvr scolded someone for an hour straight. i felt i hav to. i ranted on and on.... its all for her own good. but wad caught me unguarded is tt she cried..
"where is ur essay? forgot?! how can u forget this thing? not say tt i just verbally tell u, i even wrote the hw down on a piece of paper. thats the practice i always adopt. and u say u dunno? forget? at least go to the file and double confirm? its not as if this practice done by me is new? why are u giving me this lousy attitude every week? hw not done, feels sleepy during lesson. how u think u gonna improve? the intention of me and ur mum here is to help u in every way we can. ur mum spent so much money and time on u, dun u see why? she is caring abt ur future! im here to facilitate wad she wan best from u! u dun care abt ur future?! thats because u are just p6 now! u are too immature to think of wad is impt in this current society! in singapore, qualifications are the most impt thing to survive! if u cant pass ur psle, u can dun even think abt landing in any of the job in singapore. moreover u are a gal. u cant do a thing! now u are too immature, i dun blame u.but pls pls. allow me and ur parents to think for ur future. in the future u gonna regret if u dun repent. when is psle? in 3 mths time! and yet u are telling me tt 3 mths is too long and dreadful? u cant even live w/o ur games and maplestory for this 3 mths? look back at march april and may, how much can u recall from this 3 mths. im sure is nth much. wcos i can easily sum it up for u- PLAY. i really think that for u to improve. i'll hav no choice but to suggest setting password and limit ur use of computer until when psle ends. its all for ur own good!cannot?! can de.... having a restriction u can slowly adapt to this. 3 mths w/o games. just give ur last shot in this 3 mths. this 3 mths will affect ur whole life! u are saying u need to talk to ur frens online?! but u still hav ur school frens wad?!"
she hugged her pillow. heads down hiding her face. sooobbbss... she lied there for 5 mins. crying. heartbreak. i wanna know wad happened. dumbfounded. wanna know her problem. she seems as if smth in her mind tt has been kept for too long. i just hit her rite on her soft spot. cry on cry on... finally she was willing to open up to me.
"i dun hav any sch frens! tts why i hate school! i really hate sch! no one including teachers likes me. everytime i do my hw, my classmates will hide them, or tear them apart and throw it away! den wads worse, they will tell the teacher i din do! i explained, teacher din bother listening to me! the ppl in sch keep bullying me because i am fat. u tell me wad to do?!"
listening to her story, i cant help but to feel very sorry for her. bullying isnt very new to me. i exp being bullied b4. i know how painful the exp is. i dun want the same thing to happen to her. she is still so young. everything still can be salvaged. look at the positive side. in life, u just hav to live with all this adversities. overcome them. show others u are better than them in other ways. nvr succumb to their cruel attempt to make u seem so little. u definitely can be better than them in the future. dun give up urself, dun give up on ppl who care for u. there are always ppl care for u, me included...
Monday, June 21, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
new stringing exp!
eh nice! just received a msg from my tennis captain we gonna meet up for a few rnds of tennis again!:) cant wait to see them again sia!
finally the string of the tennis racket breaks while i play tennis with gabriel in the morning... all along i want to change but dunno when. at least the broken strings gives me enough reason to change it asap bah.lol. eh! this the first time i re-string my racket man! know nuts abt it! bo bian hav to consult the uncle.
he guided and taught me alot abt stringing stuffs. there are two kinds of strings. one polyester and another synthetic material. polyester better cos the string wun run and the material is durable and sustainable.
besides the material, we need to look at the surface of the strings we buy. there are different texture, ranging from the smooth ones to the rough ones. of cos the rough ones suits my playing style la. it provides more brushing to the ball- better grip and spin to the ball as per say.
i bought the one with rough surface, told tt the cross-section is 6 sided. sounds good and it cost only 28 dollars! much lesser than i tot!
but besides knowing all these, there is one add. thing we shuld know while stringing. the tension. smth i din know of when my former coach helped me to string. after much consideration i decided to go for tension- 55(a mid range number)... mid range. why? i learnt tt the lower tension it is, the ball will go deeper while a very tight one will be less powerful.
wao really a good knowledge i gained from this stringing exp. haha just wanna write here so tt i can refer to it anytime if i forget HAHAH!
finally the string of the tennis racket breaks while i play tennis with gabriel in the morning... all along i want to change but dunno when. at least the broken strings gives me enough reason to change it asap bah.lol. eh! this the first time i re-string my racket man! know nuts abt it! bo bian hav to consult the uncle.
he guided and taught me alot abt stringing stuffs. there are two kinds of strings. one polyester and another synthetic material. polyester better cos the string wun run and the material is durable and sustainable.
besides the material, we need to look at the surface of the strings we buy. there are different texture, ranging from the smooth ones to the rough ones. of cos the rough ones suits my playing style la. it provides more brushing to the ball- better grip and spin to the ball as per say.
i bought the one with rough surface, told tt the cross-section is 6 sided. sounds good and it cost only 28 dollars! much lesser than i tot!
but besides knowing all these, there is one add. thing we shuld know while stringing. the tension. smth i din know of when my former coach helped me to string. after much consideration i decided to go for tension- 55(a mid range number)... mid range. why? i learnt tt the lower tension it is, the ball will go deeper while a very tight one will be less powerful.
wao really a good knowledge i gained from this stringing exp. haha just wanna write here so tt i can refer to it anytime if i forget HAHAH!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
moments of truth
mon. 31/05/2010
went out with lao nv ren to eat! wa liao dunno treat her umpteen times le lo! but hahah treating her makes me feel good la. cos can make her feel guilty ma, which in the end is.. hahaha! she said she will treat me back nxt time de! ITS RECORDED HERE! U CANT RUN AWAY FROM UR PROMISE NOW! WAHAHHA! went maxwell food centre. had our dinner there... haha. eh though cheap, but their food is nice k! me and her walked arnd trying to loook for nice food to eat.but apparently some of the more famous stalls closed alr. in the end, we just hav to settle with the remaining, but still nice ones.she intended to go for wanton noodles and so i just hand my 5 dollars notes to her! NAH! haha...." u like my father leh!" LOL! -this is the way how tai tai lives ma! after the meal, we walked all the way to chinatown... walk walk walk.... only 15mins walk wor! not too far... settle for koi for our drinks and den we walked to the station to head back home....
she is not going by train... someone is gonna fetch her. her bf, she admitted. sounds weird and reluctant. dunno how she feels towards me. but deep down i do feel smth. dunno why.. she did asked me if she shuld accept him as her bf. den, i, pretending as a generous man, decided to give her a v noble ans, "go accept if he is v nice to u lor". i stupid or wad... not v sure..but i all along see her as my good fren leh. afraid to lose a nice fren like her? yup..she is a nice gal definitely. wad do i still wait for? mayb somebody better than her, somebody im pretty sure is the one for me? yes. i can only think this way now. i hope one day real soon i can find this v one...
05/06/2010 sat
went out with the clique for a usual clique outing.dinner. in sushi tei ,taka. packed by 6pm. hav to book a place using a name. nig and wz exclaimed, "mr ma!" -.-
they asked to put my hp no. -.-
they nvr know how hurtful it is to say this in front of me. thanks ah... put my number somemore. -.-
i just dont feel as if i getting away from this shit, no matter how hard i tried. i tried to divert my attention away. but i just going round in circles. back to her.
the whole day, i was a blank.
i dunno how to talk.
i just so mentally broken down.
dun wish to stay any longer.
decided to leave early.
wz and nig seem to know why i leave early.
i cant stay any longer.
mayb even in this clique.
i seriously need a break
a v long one....
but how??
went out with lao nv ren to eat! wa liao dunno treat her umpteen times le lo! but hahah treating her makes me feel good la. cos can make her feel guilty ma, which in the end is.. hahaha! she said she will treat me back nxt time de! ITS RECORDED HERE! U CANT RUN AWAY FROM UR PROMISE NOW! WAHAHHA! went maxwell food centre. had our dinner there... haha. eh though cheap, but their food is nice k! me and her walked arnd trying to loook for nice food to eat.but apparently some of the more famous stalls closed alr. in the end, we just hav to settle with the remaining, but still nice ones.she intended to go for wanton noodles and so i just hand my 5 dollars notes to her! NAH! haha...." u like my father leh!" LOL! -this is the way how tai tai lives ma! after the meal, we walked all the way to chinatown... walk walk walk.... only 15mins walk wor! not too far... settle for koi for our drinks and den we walked to the station to head back home....
she is not going by train... someone is gonna fetch her. her bf, she admitted. sounds weird and reluctant. dunno how she feels towards me. but deep down i do feel smth. dunno why.. she did asked me if she shuld accept him as her bf. den, i, pretending as a generous man, decided to give her a v noble ans, "go accept if he is v nice to u lor". i stupid or wad... not v sure..but i all along see her as my good fren leh. afraid to lose a nice fren like her? yup..she is a nice gal definitely. wad do i still wait for? mayb somebody better than her, somebody im pretty sure is the one for me? yes. i can only think this way now. i hope one day real soon i can find this v one...
05/06/2010 sat
went out with the clique for a usual clique outing.dinner. in sushi tei ,taka. packed by 6pm. hav to book a place using a name. nig and wz exclaimed, "mr ma!" -.-
they asked to put my hp no. -.-
they nvr know how hurtful it is to say this in front of me. thanks ah... put my number somemore. -.-
i just dont feel as if i getting away from this shit, no matter how hard i tried. i tried to divert my attention away. but i just going round in circles. back to her.
the whole day, i was a blank.
i dunno how to talk.
i just so mentally broken down.
dun wish to stay any longer.
decided to leave early.
wz and nig seem to know why i leave early.
i cant stay any longer.
mayb even in this clique.
i seriously need a break
a v long one....
but how??
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