i have nvr scolded someone for an hour straight. i felt i hav to. i ranted on and on.... its all for her own good. but wad caught me unguarded is tt she cried..
"where is ur essay? forgot?! how can u forget this thing? not say tt i just verbally tell u, i even wrote the hw down on a piece of paper. thats the practice i always adopt. and u say u dunno? forget? at least go to the file and double confirm? its not as if this practice done by me is new? why are u giving me this lousy attitude every week? hw not done, feels sleepy during lesson. how u think u gonna improve? the intention of me and ur mum here is to help u in every way we can. ur mum spent so much money and time on u, dun u see why? she is caring abt ur future! im here to facilitate wad she wan best from u! u dun care abt ur future?! thats because u are just p6 now! u are too immature to think of wad is impt in this current society! in singapore, qualifications are the most impt thing to survive! if u cant pass ur psle, u can dun even think abt landing in any of the job in singapore. moreover u are a gal. u cant do a thing! now u are too immature, i dun blame u.but pls pls. allow me and ur parents to think for ur future. in the future u gonna regret if u dun repent. when is psle? in 3 mths time! and yet u are telling me tt 3 mths is too long and dreadful? u cant even live w/o ur games and maplestory for this 3 mths? look back at march april and may, how much can u recall from this 3 mths. im sure is nth much. wcos i can easily sum it up for u- PLAY. i really think that for u to improve. i'll hav no choice but to suggest setting password and limit ur use of computer until when psle ends. its all for ur own good!cannot?! can de.... having a restriction u can slowly adapt to this. 3 mths w/o games. just give ur last shot in this 3 mths. this 3 mths will affect ur whole life! u are saying u need to talk to ur frens online?! but u still hav ur school frens wad?!"
she hugged her pillow. heads down hiding her face. sooobbbss... she lied there for 5 mins. crying. heartbreak. i wanna know wad happened. dumbfounded. wanna know her problem. she seems as if smth in her mind tt has been kept for too long. i just hit her rite on her soft spot. cry on cry on... finally she was willing to open up to me.
"i dun hav any sch frens! tts why i hate school! i really hate sch! no one including teachers likes me. everytime i do my hw, my classmates will hide them, or tear them apart and throw it away! den wads worse, they will tell the teacher i din do! i explained, teacher din bother listening to me! the ppl in sch keep bullying me because i am fat. u tell me wad to do?!"
listening to her story, i cant help but to feel very sorry for her. bullying isnt very new to me. i exp being bullied b4. i know how painful the exp is. i dun want the same thing to happen to her. she is still so young. everything still can be salvaged. look at the positive side. in life, u just hav to live with all this adversities. overcome them. show others u are better than them in other ways. nvr succumb to their cruel attempt to make u seem so little. u definitely can be better than them in the future. dun give up urself, dun give up on ppl who care for u. there are always ppl care for u, me included...
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