moments of truth

mon. 31/05/2010

went out with lao nv ren to eat! wa liao dunno treat her umpteen times le lo! but hahah treating her makes me feel good la. cos can make her feel guilty ma, which in the end is.. hahaha! she said she will treat me back nxt time de! ITS RECORDED HERE! U CANT RUN AWAY FROM UR PROMISE NOW! WAHAHHA! went maxwell food centre. had our dinner there... haha. eh though cheap, but their food is nice k! me and her walked arnd trying to loook for nice food to eat.but apparently some of the more famous stalls closed alr. in the end, we just hav to settle with the remaining, but still nice ones.she intended to go for wanton noodles and so i just hand my 5 dollars notes to her! NAH! haha...." u like my father leh!" LOL! -this is the way how tai tai lives ma! after the meal, we walked all the way to chinatown... walk walk walk.... only 15mins walk wor! not too far... settle for koi for our drinks and den we walked to the station to head back home....
she is not going by train... someone is gonna fetch her. her bf, she admitted. sounds weird and reluctant. dunno how she feels towards me. but deep down i do feel smth. dunno why.. she did asked me if she shuld accept him as her bf. den, i, pretending as a generous man, decided to give her a v noble ans, "go accept if he is v nice to u lor". i stupid or wad... not v sure..but i all along see her as my good fren leh. afraid to lose a nice fren like her? yup..she is a nice gal definitely. wad do i still wait for? mayb somebody better than her, somebody im pretty sure is the one for me? yes. i can only think this way now. i hope one day real soon i can find this v one...

05/06/2010 sat

went out with the clique for a usual clique outing.dinner. in sushi tei ,taka. packed by 6pm. hav to book a place using a name. nig and wz exclaimed, "mr ma!" -.-
they asked to put my hp no. -.-
they nvr know how hurtful it is to say this in front of me. thanks ah... put my number somemore. -.-
i just dont feel as if i getting away from this shit, no matter how hard i tried. i tried to divert my attention away. but i just going round in circles. back to her.
the whole day, i was a blank.
i dunno how to talk.
i just so mentally broken down.
dun wish to stay any longer.
decided to leave early.
wz and nig seem to know why i leave early.
i cant stay any longer.
mayb even in this clique.
i seriously need a break
a v long one....
but how??